First of all, if we run, we do not leave ourselves behind. We can run to the farthest most part of the earth, we will still be there We cannot get away from ourselves. You knew that, didn't you? So, then why do you want to run? Instead of wanting to run....The Bible says..
"Stand in awe, and sin not: commune with your own heart upon your bed, and be still. Selah. Offer the sacrifices of righteousness, and put your trust in the Lord."
4) "Rejoice in the Lord always: and again I say, Rejoice. 5) Let your moderation be known unto all men. 6) Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. 7) And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Philippians 4: 4-7
"Finally, brethern, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things." Philippians 4:8
"Those things, which ye have both learned and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you." Philippians 4: 9
We want to know why me and we question Him, why me? No, again, we should not, but there are times when we do. Yes, we are blessed that He loves us and will forgive us our sinful nature because He died for our sins. He loves us even when we sin. No, He doesn't love the sin, but He loves the sinner and we must confess our sin of unbelief at these times when our faith is weak.
In His words above we have instructions for what we need to do to gain our composure and pick up from where we are and go on. We need to grow. Instead of being angry we are admonished in the words to "commune in our hearts and be still"..."Be still and know that I am God" is another verse of scripture. He knows what we are going through and He knows when enough is enough and He can turn the tide, when it is time. We are all tested because there is not a soul that does not have times when life seems unfair. This is when we need to get to a place in Him, that we do not wavier, we stand firm and we believe with all of our heart and all of our might, that Jesus Christ is Lord. "Think on these things, whatsoever is pure, honest, lovely, true, and just."
When we get ourselves back into alignment Christ and where He wants us to be; we can then pray the prayer that David prayed:
"Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not they holy spirit from me. Restore unto me they joy of they salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit." Psalms 51: 10 - 12
*All scripture from KJV